You Don't Know Me

You claim my friendship

But you don't know me.

So articulate with your words,
you preach your love..

But you don't know me.

I will not be what you want me to be.
Oblivious to my feelings you march unhindered.
Some vision of what you think I am filling your mind..

But you don't know me.

That Day

You hide yourself
Behind a mask of iron.
Through preserverance, you are protected
But only from your own feelings.
When love comes to you, your walls will crumble.

I look forward to that day.

There's no need for protection from me.
I attack you with my heart I know,
but I know no better than to love you.
Open yourself, with pride, and honesty,
and show your inner beauty.
Sing your sweetest song to me once again.

Now I know better

Once I thought you loved me.
I kept that dear in my heart.
It collected my spirit and mind.

Now I know better.

Was it spite or jealousy?
You hurt me so deep.
Wounds with the longest knife,
that is love...
It hurts.
But you don't bleed, or ever heal.

So it defies explanation.
It has an epicentre, a point that we call the begining.
More than an organ, it pumps love not blood.

But now I know better
Than to fall in love again.

Alone

Your touch is warm, like the love I bear for you.
But my hands are cold,
as I wait alone.
I want to hold you, to feel you near me....
Your breath on my cheek.

But I am alone.

I hear your voice in my head,
As sweet as birdsong.
If I could, I would whisper in your ear how much I love you.
How much I care...

But I can't. For I am alone.

Whilst I wait, the treetops twist and turn in the wind.
They call out your name.

My body is cold.
But my heart is warm with the memories of what once was.
I want to run my fingers through your hair,
and hold your body to mine...

But I am alone.

Alone in this cold.
Alone in this life.

My Love for You

My love for you is an unopened flower,
new and nieve.
My love for you is like spiritual orgasm,
but a feeling that never fades.
My love for you is like a fire,
the smoke chocking my resistance.
My love for you is like a knife,
waiting to carve out my heart.


Laugh

You laugh, but now I'm here.

This is for all the put downs and jokes.
The hurt and torture.

I laugh at you now.

You thought for a second you had me in the palm of your hand.

Now it's you that's the nothing,
I stamp on you respectless, like a cockroach.

And I laugh so hard....

But now I am the bully,
now I am the masked villain,
the evil perpetrator.
Now I have turned into the one,
that I once hated.

Just look at the monster you created. And laugh.

Silence

Nothing moves.
No spark of life
or heart, or love

It's not the pain of living
because there is no life
without you


Without you to hold me
I am stone cold.
Without you to love me
I am lifeless.

I stare at your picture
but all I get
is memories.
What has, could, would have been
but never will

Shattered heart's tales scream silently at me
The rain dripping down my face,
a cool reminder of real life.

And the sky goes black
and I am scared
but where are you?
where are you?
the tears run away from me
I can't catch them

I hope for you voice,
gentle to my ears,
to bring me back.

but nothing.

just silence.